anonrising | 58. How many glasses has Orca had?

So my anxiety is getting worse, I think, but anyway I keep being around people I love and appreciate and then immediately growing extremely irritable and I'll say something stupid and they'll rightfully correct me, and that sucks but it's not the worst. I just gotta stay a bit away from people, let things recharge, and I'll get better?

Except can't do that because people I live with are lovely but will continue to contact me and I cannot refuse because I feel really bad? And sometimes people I live with are ill, and I take care of them, but that just exacerbates my exhaustion and they will chase me down to apologize for being a 'bother'(it's not like they can help it! They don't have to apologize! But I also get from a mental illness point it's hard to not) and I can't exactly brush them off so I keep being trapped in this bad cycle of human contact and being shitty to my friends until I presumably snap and none of them will ever want to talk to me again.

would your friends be terribly upset if you told them you wanted to go off the grid for a weekend or so? like, somewhere around the middle of the week you tell them, "hey, i'm going to take this saturday to recharge, and will probably turn off my phone until sunday and not check any e-mails or personal messages either, just a heads up"?

ayrt

Probably :/ But I think I can steer clear the rest of this week without them noticing too much. Thankfully I'm going out of town for a while starting sunday, so I can recharge then. On the less good note, I've just been called to a meeting about some creative decisions I'm making and I am Not Ready to be actually civil about anything so, that's, going to go Fine.

dang, that sounds rough

best of luck, anon

da

I get it, I'd be hurt too if a loved one told me "i'm not going to be talking to you for the next 3 days", but you need to do what you need to do. Take care of your health first, then worry about their feelings. If they get upset over you taking care of yourself... it's not your problem.

58. How many glasses has Orca had?

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